Before I get on with today’s post I just want to share this week’s recipe. High protein pudding. Sometimes we want or need a source of protein other than meat. This is the perfect choice. It satisfies the sweet tooth while giving you a thick, rich and delicious treat.
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I've quoted part of a conversation from the Biggest Loser last night but this is one small portion of the show that lasted less than two minutes. The last hour of the show is being shown on Wednesday night so no spoilers here....
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On Monday I talked about making a little bit of progress. Last night while watching the Biggest Loser, Jillian said something to Shellay (purple team Mom) that really hit home and reminded me of a post that I wrote back in February about making a choice but took it to the next level for me.
Jillian and Shellay were working out and had an emotional moment when Jillian told Shellay that she didn’t hear anything “real” from Shellay that nothing gets through her façade of oblivion. She went on to tell her that she was selling herself short and asked her what she was defending against. Shellay said she always had to be the strong one on the outside…WOW, did that hit home with me. All of my life I’ve had to be the strong one. Today would have been my Dad’s 83rd birthday. He died ten years ago. You know even at his funeral, I had to be the strong one for my older brother and sister. I had to lead them by the hands through it. Did I know what I was doing? No, but I had to stand up and take charge. I didn’t cry the entire time I was up in Pennsylvania for the funeral. I didn’t shed a single tear. I remember thinking after the funeral that there was something wrong with me. My strong older brother cried like a baby and there I was, unemotional, flat, cold, all the while keeping this strong front so that I could get through this most difficult time. It was only after I returned to Florida I let myself cry in private.
Jillian went on to tell Shellay that “I see a strong and sexy woman who told me she wanted to be here, that wanted to have MORE but to have more you have to give more. You’re only one breath away from being anything you want to be, that one breath is a CHOICE, chose it! Make a choice and tell a different story.”
Wow, just wow.
Jillian and Shellay were working out and had an emotional moment when Jillian told Shellay that she didn’t hear anything “real” from Shellay that nothing gets through her façade of oblivion. She went on to tell her that she was selling herself short and asked her what she was defending against. Shellay said she always had to be the strong one on the outside…WOW, did that hit home with me. All of my life I’ve had to be the strong one. Today would have been my Dad’s 83rd birthday. He died ten years ago. You know even at his funeral, I had to be the strong one for my older brother and sister. I had to lead them by the hands through it. Did I know what I was doing? No, but I had to stand up and take charge. I didn’t cry the entire time I was up in Pennsylvania for the funeral. I didn’t shed a single tear. I remember thinking after the funeral that there was something wrong with me. My strong older brother cried like a baby and there I was, unemotional, flat, cold, all the while keeping this strong front so that I could get through this most difficult time. It was only after I returned to Florida I let myself cry in private.
Jillian went on to tell Shellay that “I see a strong and sexy woman who told me she wanted to be here, that wanted to have MORE but to have more you have to give more. You’re only one breath away from being anything you want to be, that one breath is a CHOICE, chose it! Make a choice and tell a different story.”
Wow, just wow.
It all comes down to a choice. Everything we do is a choice, the rest is just little lies we tell ourselves. “I was at work and they brought pizza in for lunch, I didn’t have a choice” “I was out shopping and I got hungry so I grabbed ____, because I didn’t have a choice”, "its only one candy bar, I'll start fresh tomorrow" Most of the people reading this live in countries where we have choices. We always have a choice. One of the most important choices we can make is planning. There are so many healthy snacks you can keep on hand to tide you over until you can make a better choice.
My Dad always wanted me to lose weight because he worried about my social acceptance and my health. When I was growing up he’d say “you need to push yourself away from the table kid” and then as I got older he’d say “you need to think about your health and your life” He knew that being overweight made it difficult for me to find acceptance, socially, professionally and romantically. Dad has been gone for years but still I struggle. I only wish he could have met Ken, I wish he knew I found love.
Now it’s time to work on the rest of it. I’m ready to make a choice; I'm ready to tell a different story.
My Dad always wanted me to lose weight because he worried about my social acceptance and my health. When I was growing up he’d say “you need to push yourself away from the table kid” and then as I got older he’d say “you need to think about your health and your life” He knew that being overweight made it difficult for me to find acceptance, socially, professionally and romantically. Dad has been gone for years but still I struggle. I only wish he could have met Ken, I wish he knew I found love.
Now it’s time to work on the rest of it. I’m ready to make a choice; I'm ready to tell a different story.
11 comments:
Wow, Jillian's words really struck a chord with you, didn’t they? What a break-through! We ALWAYS have a choice when it comes to the food we put in our mouth. No one ties us down and force-feeds us anything!
Thanks for sharing such a personal, insightful story, Diana. You're amazing.
Wow. I made the choice to cry on this one! I must've missed that part, but I'm going back to rewatch it before the second half of the show. It's so true. We do have a choice. Those choices that we made have all the affect in the world on us.
You rock!
as usual you inspire.. but my dear friend I have one thing to tell you... I think your dad knows you found Ken.. I think those we lose somehow know .. we are okay.. and we will be okay.. I bet he simply knows..
I missed last nights episode so will have to find a copy online to watch but wow, Jillian is always so insightful!
"to have more you have to give more. You’re only one breath away from being anything you want to be, that one breath is a CHOICE, chose it!"
Perfectly worded, exactly what we all need to hear. How true is this, not only about loosing weight, but every aspect of our lives!
Jen
www.priorfatgirl.blogspot.com
Oh Jillian, you're so wise.
Thanks for sharing this with us. I love your open-ness. And it really IS all about choice.
Wow. I was listening to a morning radio show and they only played the part where Jillian freaked out, swore, and then basically told the person they weren't doing anything (the message was that they were dirt because they weren't trying). You give a totally different picture. She makes an excellent point.
I believe your dad knows as well. At least I hope he does.
It all comes down to the choices we make, and you're right, we will do anything to make excuses for our behavior, but that's all they are, excuses! sometimes we don't even think we have a choice, but we do!! so what if we'll be a little hungry for a while, or don't partake of the pizza...we won't perish! and we need to be happy about the choices we are making and it'll keep going in the right direction!
I felt like this post spoke directly to me. I'm off to find the episode online. Thanks for the recap and letting us know what it meant to you!
Thanks for this post. Sometimes it's hard to remember that we are making choices! Sometimes we think we are compelled to do something. Not true!
This is a great and powerful post. Thank you so much for your honesty.
Oh, I'm going to try the protein pudding.
I love Jillian. She is so insightful. When I saw that part in the episode, I was riveted. It spoke to me too. When she said "You're only ONE breath away from being anything you want to be" I got tears in my eyes. I wish I could hire Jillian to kick my butt.
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